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Monday, September 29, 2025

Ten Distinct Smells

As instructed in my prompt, I went for a walk (accompanied by my little Penny Lane, of course) by the bay in Edmonds and the ferry terminal. I thought finding ten distinct smells would be tough, but discovered, once I paid attention, it was easy peasy. Paying attention; always the hardest part of any assignment, regardless of its nature.


The briny water is, of course, the first scent to astound the senses the moment I step out of the car, either tugging Penny along or barely keeping up with her pace. The ocean scent is one I welcome, bringing me memories that go long and far into the past, moving me right up into the present. 

Digging for clams from a very young age at Copalis Beach, summer after summer, getting our limit of 15 clams per family member per day, then having to eat them all winter long in various forms of recipes my mother so lovingly tested on her three guinea pigs, Dad, my brother and me. With many other changes his birth would allow, we quit those family adventures after my younger brother was born. I need to save those details for another story and hope I'll have a chance to get to it one day. 

Other memories this scent instills are boating, camping, beachcombing at Dash Point as a kid, and in the early '90's at Shark’s Spit on the BC Peninisula, with many places up and down the timeline and coastline. From the Atlantic to the Pacific, north to Alaska and Massachusetts, South to the Caribbean and the beaches of Mexico’s Riviera, the salty air of Denmark.

Perfume! Almost an assault while walking along the strand, yet pleasant in its own way… motherly, sisterly, womanly. Patchouli quickly creates an image of a long-ago boyfriend of my daughter. Although I don’t know if Travis actually wore patchouli, whenever I smell it, he comes to mind, a young man who embodied the spirit of a ‘60’s hippie more than the originals, with his long, tangled hair, penchant for radical politics, and riding his bicycle up and down the steep hills of Queen Anne.


Someone lights a cigarette, and I cross the path where the atmosphere changes so immediately that brine and perfume are wiped out in a sense of love and hate. I cannot stand the smell of secondhand smoke, and yet, and yet… there are times when I get the scent of that freshly lit cigarette, and it brings back the days of my own personal addiction. I had a lot of affection for my little kit of Marlboros and lighters. I kept a carton in the freezer and opening a new pack was akin to a distinct euphoria. I miss it... in my dreams. I know what smoking did to me; it affected my lifelong health. If I were ever to pick it up again. It will kill me. It's been 20+ years, and I can't believe I loved it as much as I did.


Coffee, as we walk by the espresso bar, where people are ordering lattes and such, along with ice cream and pastries. Nothing clings to the air quite like coffee brewing. I started drinking coffee when I was about 4 years old, in a tiny cup with its matching saucer. I still have it to this day, a baby shower gift from one of the Danish ladies I grew up with. My first coffee drinks were mostly hot milk, with a little coffee to flavor. As an adult I varied between drinking it black and undiluted, to absolutely destroying it with cream and sugar. I drink tea now but occasionally love a cup of well-prepared coffee. My Danish grandmother pressed upon me how important it was to always have the pot on, ready to welcome visitors. I’ve missed that treasure of a woman for 59 years now; I was 17 when she passed. I've never known anyone to make people feel as welcome as Myrtine Grove did. 

Ah, the odor of sunscreen. Coppertone from those early days of bronzing and bubbly skin, and years later the pink-tin-bottled stuff we sprayed on my grandkids. I had an allergy to parabens and UV filters that burned my skin more than the sun ever did. I eschewed sunscreens and now we’ve learned the spray remedies weren’t too healthy either, giving kids respiratory reactions. 

I get depressed at summer's end when my skin turns back to its natural glaring white, after tanning naturally to a golden brown.

Kiawe burning (pronounced kee-AH-vay); kiawe grilling of salmon especially. I never smell Kiawe without recalling my first encounter on the streets of La Conner, Washington. We used to drive up there, wander the galleries, drink and eat too much and stay in fine places like The La Conner Inn, Hotel Planter, and Wild Iris. The Tulip Festival that started in the mid-80’s was often a draw for us, as well as the migration of snow geese and trumpeter swans. The streets of La Conner still smell like Kiawe, especially when tourist season kicks in. In later years, we boated up the Swinomish, and coming through the passage, I sniffed the air like a dog for that familiar delicious smell. 

Meat, beef, or steak, which is different from the above Kiawe, in the sense that there is a distinct odor to a fire lit under red meat, and the spices and herbs that entice the appetite. These odors permeate the air from the many restaurants in Edmonds and the waterfront we walk. I love my steak and, as recommended by my doctor, eat steak about twice a month. I rarely order it out, as I can do real justice to a Porterhouse or Ribeye all on my own and it's a lot cheaper, too. Red meat is a complete protein and provided essential amino acids to repair and build muscle. It's a rich source of iron, zinc and Vitamin B12. 

My fondest memory of eating steak is Las Vegas, a few years ago, with my youngest daughter, when we sidled up to a bar and ordered the most expensive thing on the menu. It was a self-taught lesson in having whatever we wanted and at the moment we wanted a heavy pour of pinot noir and a filet mignon. Each.

Broken ferns. They give off a very specific scent. Green, earthy, the forest floor, scattered with the detritus of the eroding and waste of the forest, the darkness of a walk in the woods, all the sounds that accompany... creaking timbers, multitudes of insects singing, thumping, tweeting, whistling. Birds: goldfinch, sparrow, junco, nuthatch, stellar jay, and owls aroused by the invasion of domesticity. I grew up surrounded by conifers and was either marched through fern laden woods with my dad or the Girl Scouts. 

Mixed in with all these smells, I come upon, or it comes upon me, the humid closeness of Ariel, the detergent that is so prevalent in Mexico. A family walks by and the softness of this clean and hugging scent brings me back to my Lavanderia Pulpito, the drop-off/pick-up laundry I owned in Puerto Vallarta. Many years ago. Someday a story about that, too.

My dog goes with me just about everywhere. Sometimes she smells like me; the lotion I’ve just put on my hands or the squirt of perfume I sometimes wear. Penny Lane, my 6-pound chihuahua-mix, loves her baths in the kitchen sink and for a couple days following, she smells of clean doggy shampoo. But usually... she has her own smell, something like a mix of buttered popcorn, vanilla, and cheese. Ha! Sounds awful, doesn’t it? It’s so perfect, you have no idea until you give her a cuddle.

So, there you have it, the acute recall of the olfactory sense. 

Part of this assignment is to describe the "barren patch in my own backyard" and what I would fill it with (anything I want.) My barren patch is the sorrow of loss. It clings to me all the time, though I keep it well hidden. What would I fill it with if I could? Mostly the babies I lost, I think. If I had a child for each time my womb began to fill, I'd have eleven sons and daughters. And... a complete family would fill my barren patch, something I've felt robbed of, even as hard as I tried to create a whole and thriving unit. 

As we age, losses build up; you never get used to losing someone, especially the young ones. I have lost people who are still alive, and that's the hardest. Maybe I'll go into this in some later blog. That's enough for today.

These isn't fancy writing, just words pulled out of one of the five senses, a writer's best friends. 

Thanks for reading.

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Sunday, September 3, 2023

Cascadia Postcard Festival - PoPo 2023

It's time again for August Postcard madness! I love the PoPo to close out the summer months and thanks to Paul Nelson for introducing me to this poem-a-day event, so many years ago. I now have a bulging shoebox of postcards from all over the world, postmarked with endless Augusts.

Poetry is an opportunity for me to not just express myself in free verse or poetic forms, it helps with my prose writing, to keep the juices flowing and spark the imagination. I also have the chance to share postcards collected from estate sales, galleries, museums, bookstores. There are those I have a hard time parting with, but keeping them in my blog, I can always see them and know where to find them! Apparently, according to my count, a couple went missing and I have no record of them, so it you received a card from me that isn't here, please let me know.

Some of these poems are inspired by the postcard that delivers them; others are the result of spontaneous inspirations. I made a couple of my postcards this year and plan to do more next year. There is a slight amount of editing, but these postcard poems are mostly in their original form.

Thanks for reading.


                                                      HIS MAMA'S EYELINER


It was his mama's eyeliner
Then he learnt to buy his own
Tender twelve-year-old fingers plucking at a cheap tinny guitar
A magic sound matched with an angel's voice
Singing praise to God, rolling holy
'Til the music shook him to his soul
And he shared it with the world
Guns and other stuff came later

(About this postcard. This is an Andy Warhol painting that currently hangs at Seattle Art Museum. To learn more about Elvis and Andy, Christie's has a great commentary on the 22 Warhol Elvis pieces.)

 ~~~

DAUGHTER OF DAUGHTERS


   You, daughter of daughters:
I have stood on your sacred earth.
Held your holy dirt in my hand
while it slid from my palm
like history passing.
I breathed into my body your ocean smell, 
like the heaven you hold in your hair.

~~~

A WORLD FULL OF BEGGERS


We lost everything
Thanks to your clever 
Genius Financing
and a 
poison that invaded your Blood, Spine, Brain, Lungs,
Every
Thing.
And left us emptyhanded
in a world
full of beggars.

~~~

THE WAY YOU ATE YOUR EGGS


I never made fun of the way you ate your eggs.
You drunk-cried more than anyone I ever knew.
I told them to not mock you.
I wondered why 
all the sorrow?
We shared mornings, 
phone call check-ins, stupid jokes, 
and the train card game.
You left me gaping. 

~~~

X MARKS THE SPOT


X marks the spot
You are here
Close your eyes and
acknowledge
Invasion
unholy insidious enduring indefinite
Be Brave
Allow your tears to fall

~~~

FLOWERS WAITING TO BLOOM


Do you know the songs unsung?
Are they circling round your skull like 
a wreath of flower buds, waiting to 
bloom, waiting to
blow away gloom, heralding a day
we can embrace with fragrant glowing strains? 

~~~

WHEN WE COULD REALLY DRINK


We had the Pink Door, in a smokey alley, with the scent of salty air misting on the autumn night. So many nights, drinking when we could really drink. Music that never crowded the language, and asking when will late friends ever arrive. Before closing, taking the Tarot card reader seriously, wanting every word to be the gospel.

~~~

21


He was half his life old in the photo. 
21.
Who knew that 19 years later, 
his life would be over?
I miss him 
though he never knew me. 
And now I am almost twice 
the age he was 
and he was gone. 

(On seeing a photo of John Lennon in Paris at the age of 21. 
Stardom was just a dream around the corner.)

~~~

AGING


Such a disarray of clothes, 
on chairs, 
the foot of the big bed, 
draped over the hamper, like old men, 
vying to escape. 

Framed photos on any horizontal space;
then there are those
 in my own original customized 
stacks and piles. 

Poems left open on pages 
of forgotten books. 

Dishes in the sink. 

Who will remind me 
to feed myself?

~~~

GIRL ON HER WAY TO NEW YORK


There is no map to guide you in your journey of innocence, 
destination known, 
unknown. There is no treasure, 
no ring, no fortune within sight.
Be your own advisor, 
navigator, 
captain of your ship.
I'll be waiting on this shore, holding 
my pride flag, the fabric of faith. 

~~~

LET'S GO FOR A RIDE


let's go for a ride
you be the groom
i'll be the bride

we'll stop in a bar
shoot some pool 
and
drink beer from a jar

we'll pause in a field
and stare at the stars
knowing our fate is sealed

if we have a kid
we'll teach them about 
l o v e
tell them the truth
about everything we did

~~~

FURY


Just before midnight, my adult daughter came to my room and took me by the hand 
to the big windows out front where the rain hammered and the wind tore 
causing rivulets of angry foam that bubbled down the street, as the sky BOOMED with thunder, metallic lightning streaks and our gaping wide faces peering into the raging night, which was over as quickly as it had begun and I said to her "fury, honey, that's fury."

~~~

THE MOON


Tonight, the moon followed me.
She's waning, as am I.
I left her hanging there,
In the plum-colored sky.

~~~

ALOHA


Oceans of tears
Skies full of firefall
Lonely souls sift through tides
Settle on millions of grains of sand
Moaning in the night
Weeping in the morning light
The loss of 
foresight
history
wonder

(Aloha is a Hawaiian word with many meanings, ranging from love, peace, and compassion to pity and grief. It's commonly used, especially by visitors to Hawaii, to mean hello and goodbye.)

~~~

CRYING LADY ROCK


Oceans of tears
Skies full of firefall
Lonely souls sift through tides
Settle on millions of grains of sand
Moaning in the night
Weeping in the morning light
The loss of 
foresight
history
wonder
Your ashes find their way to my garden
Your smoke covers my eyes.

(This poem just wasn't finished but had already been sent on its way. This is version #2.)

~~~

9/11


A deep hole
Goes so far down
We don't know where it ends
Buried there are
laughter, songs, photos 
in worn wallets,
wedding rings, 
favorite socks and ties,
Manolos and Hush Puppies
Lost goodbyes

~~~

MARIA


Now three years and more gone
I still see you there in my mind
Old messages and pics pop up on social media
and meet me with a stab
How can I go back to Garbo
and sit next to someone
who isn't you?

~~~

MAYBE NEXT YEAR


Time ate away the summer
And I didn't get a chance
to pick the blackberries
and make you a 
Birthday Pie
and aim for reparations.
You
sent photos of sunsets
(what does that even mean?)
but no shared burden of a weary load.
Time waits for no one
but
Maybe next year.

~~~

AFTER THE CASINO CLOSED


After the casino closed
Lights spelled out a partial name, 
some blinking yet...
on
off
on
off
Hanging onto pipe dreams
Testing a faulty resilience,
Hollow hope and sticky coins
Beg gamblers for a homecoming.

~~~

HISTORY IN THE MAKING



"A criminal enterprise 
of breathtaking scope."
For those of us who managed 
to survive a pandemic 
somewhat intact,
the firehose 
of daily revelations
causes reservation 
to even contemplate, 
let alone 
ask 
"what's new?"

~~~

SEQUOIAS


Sequoias, like strong women
grouped together,
weeping willows 
firs and pines,
shoulder to shoulder.
Ancient-speak
holding hands
with firm ground,
embattled daughters 
conquer galaxies.

~~~

MY TATTOO


"And so it goes," 
she has permanently marked 
upon her arm. 
Perfect details. 
Bees 
we share,
as if there wasn't anywhere else
to declare
devotion and trust
than a forearm.

~~~

SHE WASN'T A FRIEND OF MINE


She wasn't a friend of mine,
She was someone I'd run into
When out at the bars,
We always had a rapport.
Her laughter
had a following. 
I wish I'd known her better.

~~~

NEW YEAR'S 2016 P-TOWN


It was icy cold.
We overdrank and underslept.
The best part was watching 
the Uber prices rise by the minute,
as time
got closer to midnight.

We bundled up and walked the mile, 
arguing about Ole Miss
Surely you remember.
You handily beat me at very game 
with a smirk and another lesson in satire.

~~~

I'VE HAD HOUSES


I had a villa on a cliff in Mexico that overlooked the ocean, backlit by a jungle where cicadas pierced the dusky light, reminding me of the choir of amphibious creatures who lullabied my childhood in a house so secure and safe, that sleep was rarely interrupted, while I dreamt of my Queen Anne home of the future with white fences and unlocked doors.

~~~

GOODBYE


It doesn't mean 
what I want it to say
Have a good bye
By the by
By the time you get there
You will only be concerned with Hellos.

~~~

NOT MY JOB


To lend a hand 
to be of assistance, 
cause those entitled 
to exhibit silent resistance, 
heavy loads are borne 
by the remaining few 
who toil 
for mere existence. 

~~~

WHEN MY THIGHS WERE BEAUTIFUL


I walked on beaches 
with a towel around my waist, 
Never projecting into the future 
what old legs might looks like, 
how healthy I was then, 
how strong. 
It took decades to love my thighs 
and myself.

~~~

PRICE TAGS


The thing that costs the most 
is not always the best 
The biggest is not always the brightest.

Why leave a price tag on
to prove a hollow point?

~~~

I SPOKE TO YOU


I spoke to you
I whispered in your ear
(I said I love you...")
You forgot who I am
I called you 
on the phone, 
texted, 
emailed. 
I never gave up. 
love 
you.

~~~

THE ACTORS' HOUSE


This house was surely haunted
when I lived there in the late 60's 
Now it is my thoughts 
that are haunted 
when I find it driving by, 
searching for the past.
I sit across the street and stare,
Hearing my own haunted howls 
of anguish. 
Nothing spared. 
Never shared. 

~~~

END OF THE DAY


Sometimes I make my bed 
At the end of the day
Then I undo it all 
and climb under the covers, 
sorting limbs, 
like a dog, walking in circles, 
looking for the perfect spot. 
Smoothing pillows 
and ending the day 
on a perfect note. 
Resting, 
dreaming, 
hoping.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~




Monday, August 28, 2023



I'm very excited to share the release of my new chapbook with Bottlecap Press! These poems have been years in the making and the real deal is finally here for you to hold in your hands.

The Nail Set is a collection of heartfelt poems about previous chapters in my life, when rooms were bigger, life was longer, written over a period of time pertaining to events that are connected, speaking of joy, sorrow and sometimes terror.

I am so proud of this work and pleased to share it with you. Please buy it now at https://bottlecap.press/products/set

THANKS FOR READING!!!!


Monday, April 10, 2023

Myrtine Petersen Grove July 16, 1891 - April 10, 1966

 

Myrtine 


I was not my grandmother’s favorite grandchild, but I adored both my grandparents. I was devastated when we lost my dear Grandma on April 10, Easter Sunday, 1966. 

I was a Junior in high school and heavily into the music of the day. I’d grown my hair long, cut bangs, grown them out again, and mimicked Joan Baez, Janis Ian and Judy Collins with my guitar. John Lennon, Bob Dylan and Hoyt Axton were my heroes, and I wasn’t the ingenue that my cousin Marci was. My grandmother often told me I should try to be more like her. I loved my grandmother too much to resent those comments and had no intention of ever being anyone but who I was.

Myrtine Petersen Grove, born July 16, 1891 in Colman, Moody, South Dakota, died on April 10, 1966 in Enumclaw, Washington, at home, sitting in a chair, eating her daughter’s canned peaches, put up in August of 1965, when it never occurred to anyone that Grandma wouldn’t be with us the next summer, pressing the lids on fruits and vegetables to test the seal, making sure there was fresh coffee perking, and cheese sandwiches drowning her dark Danish bread, while we all labored away in the hot kitchen, juggling jars, rings, lids and boiling water.

Married



My Beautiful Grandparents

My grandma’s bread was the best in the world, brown, with a hint of sweetness, rich, like her constant coffee, little slices that were often overwhelmed by layers of cheese, thinly sliced ham or beef, beet pickles and tart mustard. Her klejner and æbleskiver were not just holiday delicacies; they were warm in her kitchen on a regular basis, rolled in powdered or granulated sugar, greeting you at the back door, assuring your special place in her kitchen, which always smelled like a cross between a bakery and laundry, where the scent of her steam iron mixed with all the smells of a loving, well-tended home.


                                                 My precious grandmother and me

My Danish grandmother eschewed pants and wore delicate patterned and floral dresses of cotton, silk crepe and chiffon, even for daily wear. The scent of lilacs and lavender will always remind me of resting my cheek against her soft bosom, even as I grew into adolescence.

Grandpa Carl and Me and Grandma Myrt

Grandma, my mom, a Danish exchange student, Grandpa, Me
1964

Even though I was the little hippie girl, and my grandmother would often tell me to get my hair out of my eyes, she was one of my biggest fans when it came to my singing and reading out loud. I don’t know who loved it more, she or I, when I’d sit cross-legged on the floor and entertain her, while she crocheted her lacy patterns, the needle weaving in and out, her fingers moving with practiced precise movements that she’d perfected over several decades.



The night before Grandma passed, our family was at my grandparents, my mother making dinner, urging her mother to relax and get well, after a mini-stroke had hospitalized her the week before. I was in my usual spot in the living room in front of my grandmother, reading to her from Walt Whitman’s Leaves of Grass. My mother popped her head into the room to tell us dinner was soon ready, and Grandma told her to get the bust of Hans Christian Andersen down from the mantel. She wanted my mother to write my name on the bottom, to make sure I got it when she died. There was medical tape on the side table from when the doctor had been there earlier, taking a sample of my grandmother’s blood. My mother wrote Margo from Grandma Grove 4/9/66, and then went back to finish getting dinner on the table for my dad, grandparents, little brother and me. I suppose we protested a little, as people commonly do when someone wants to bequeath a treasure, but she’d promised it to me long before that night, so we didn’t go on about it, to my recollection.

The next morning, when my mother was in church playing the organ for the early Easter service, her mother went to be with her angels who’d gone on ahead of her. I'm sure they greeted her blowing trumpets, strumming harps and singing Broadway tunes like You Gotta Have Heart, from Them Damn Yankees, a musical my grandpa had taken Myrtine to see on one of their trips to New York. I suppose if that's where they are, I'll get to see her again one day. If that's where I'll go. 


Thanks for reading...

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Monday, September 12, 2022

Poetry Postcard Festival 2022

I was pleased to get all of my postcards sent this year by the end of the month (August). For 2022, I tried to write each poem that somehow related to the postcard I was sending. Sometimes it worked. Not always. Try to think of how little that space is on the lefthand side of a postcard; one can't be verbose. I wrote spontaneously and used my good friend White Out correction tape when things went really south. There are a few minor edits but mostly, they remain as my thoughts flowed from my pen onto the cards. Here they are:


Today I sit in the shade at the lake, Greenlake, with my postcards, dog and a good book. 

It’s cooler here, on this steamy day, lots to see: 

a fellow wearing a t-shirt that says FUNCLE – I’ll bet he’s fun! 

A panorama of paddlers, defying the sun, 

standing up to the heat. Scantily clad sun bathers 

and fully clothed head-to-toe sun-fearers. 

Wet dogs, 

pink children, 

brave cannon-ballers. 

(This post card was found in an antique shop in Port Gamble, Wa.)



In the 80’s, I often visited a friend in Montlake, off Portage Bay, 

who was caring for a woman who was 102 years old, 

and we sat around a small table 

and sorted out greeting cards 

and stamps, postcards and gift tags, while she told us 

a story of each one and pasted them 

into a collage, with a little help from our friend, and me. 

(This is a vivid memory and I pass by the house often, which this stone house in Versailles reminded me of.)


                                                         Homeless in Seattle

We drove, 

a rainy night, 

though we really just crawled 

through traffic on the Interstate 

and there, under an off ramp, like campers, 

seeking shelter, people around a bonfire, 

holding cold hands, palm out to the flame, 

and children 

hooded, 

bundled, 

a man cradling an infant. 

From our heated car, we peered into their home. 


I said a prayer, 

tho I don’t pray, and 

found my way down 

the painted pathways, counting on my aged knees 

to cooperate, seeking out the childhood home 

of a great artist, an icon on his times, 

a partner to the woman with 

the most discussed eyebrow(s) of her century. 

It was a perfect peaceful day – 

to pray. 

(Postcard purchased at Museo Casa in Guanajuato, Mexico, November 2021)


Sometimes I feel lucky. Today, Olivia Newton John passed. She fought breast cancer off and on for a long agonizing time. Oz won’t be as sparkly and precious a place without her. I’m 73 soon, same age. Today I count my lucky stars.


Somehow the moon 

willingly remains the same, 

while I, unwillingly changing, 

decade upon decade, watch with wonder 

in the dark night, as Mother Moon 

gives us her light. She has traveled 

an incredible distance with me, observing 

and unjudging 

my motions and desires.  

(This postcard found in an antique shop in Port Gamble, Wa. July 2022.)

 



I grew up in a small town, arranged 

at the foot of Mt Rainier and 

watched intently a night sky 

where stars appeared in sharp contrast 

to their deep background. A moon 

arrived in all her stages, back 

when we could still see 

the Milky Way, before I moved 

to the city and could nearly count 

the stars in the sky.


I lived in the hills; 

took me forever 

to pronounce fraccionamiento 

without mangling it. Alone 

at night 

in the huge villa, from the top bedroom, 

windows with screens (mosquiteros), 

no glass (sin cristal), the waves 

on the beach below thundered, never 

in an expected syncopation, therefore 

waking suddenly me at times, 

from a dreaming sleep. Cicadas screamed, 

frogs hollered in an almighty chorus 

and jungle animals made their own kind of music. 

I miss this orchestra. 

💗💗💗💗Con corazón 

(My house was where the arrow points in the photo.)



Sometimes 

I’m touched

with guilt, 

considering the life I’ve lived, 

the idyllic childhood, 

relatively free of worry, 

barefoot summers, 

plentiful gardens, 

an auto for each parent. 

My grandchildren 

inherit a different world 

and 

have every right to be angry.


In dreams are memories of places visited, 

people known and unknown, 

alive and passed. The element 

of a fantasy world, 

a universe that lives 

in one’s deepest imagination, is also present. 

Unread memos, 

unlocked doors, 

unmet lovers and 

flights of unparalleled desires.



If you happened upon a key in a door, 

would you turn it? If the door then opened, 

would you enter? If there were stairs, 

would you climb them? Would you call out and say 

Hello – an intruder is here!?  




                                                             College Bound

The winter excitement 

of driving the corridor 

with three laughing girls, 

junk snacking, 

phones exchanging playlists, 

energy crackling 

in the downpour 

surrounding us. Spring comes 

and destinations are 

locked in. Summer ends, 

goodbyes stretch boundaries, 

boundaries stretch hearts.


We went home, 

exhausted, and slept, 

my loyal dog and me, 

like two cats in the jungle. Hush, my darling... 

a long day, 

and now we exchange dreams. 

We roar. 

I run. 

You read.



Free

to be

to see

two women

walk arm in arm

expecting no harm

be free

see

the future



I dealt with a bit of my past today. 

Old friends losing their minds, 

young friends breaking chains. I came 

out of sleep with a dream on my mind 

but could not grasp the meaning 

as the images dissolved 

with every blink of my waking eyes.



Where else will you find 

London, 

Colorado, and 

Arizona 

tossed together. I am enchanted 

by the imaginings 

of the original stone masons, laying 

piece upon piece, mortar 

mixing, and the young, strong hod carriers 

grunting and sweating. Young boys, 

perhaps dreaming of joining 

an expedition to the North Pole, 

slopping cement instead, 

never a thought that a ship would sail way 

with that very bridge, disassembled, 

over the ocean to the west, 

while they died trying to escape. 

(London bridge was built the same time as the Amundsen expedition to the North Pole.)


I was about 14 years old. A teacher 

said to my mother 

She can do anything she decides to do; 

she just needs to set her mind to it. 

So, I did. 

Which is why 

I nearly failed school for a couple years, 

but I learned a lot about 

Greek mythology and 

Shakespeare. 

(This card was found at an estate sale.)




 



If you peeled the stamp off this postcard, you would read 
Place stamp here 
ONE CENT for United States 
and Island Possessions 
Cuba Canada and Mexico. 
Two Cents for Foreign.                                          
Imagine the price of peace for 
ONE PENNY!


I continue to see old lovers. 

Yesterday it was David, 

sat in a lawn chair by the lake, 

a book propped in his lap, 

so like him – his hairline 

receded more than I remembered. 

As I drew closer, my bad eyesight registered 

to reveal a woman, hair pulled back 

in a tight ponytail, 

wearing an orthopedic boot. 

I’m glad it was not David.


Was a time 

women dressed as if 

tending hives of bees, to cover 

nearly every bit of exposed flesh, as if 

to repel a sting or 

the barb of a thorny plant, 

fearful of the sun, 

wind 

and the lustful, gawking 

of commonly lubricious men 

of all ages. 


I ask to have all my post cards hand cancelled at the post office. 

I don’t know that it will make a difference to the receiver, if all the words will be clear and unmarred by stickers and ink. 

What I do know is this: the postal worker always smiles cheerfully, stamps as requested, and I like to think they admire this old-fashioned approach to mailing. 

(This gorgeous postcard, hard to part with, was found at an estate sale. On the back it mentions Ghirardelli Square, The Cannery, Fisherman’s Wharf, the Maritime Museum and its old ships.) (And you know all those curtains would never be so synchronized.)


He likely had the final word 

and as she half-slept, 

feet callused and weary, the train 

perhaps a thousand 

thoughts away, he strained his eyes, tired 

from the relentless vigilance 

of getting there, soothing her with words 

not his own, but no matter, 

just words to let her know 

he would be her constant lover. 


A simple room, 

of comfort and perhaps 

a little warmth, 

where in the sunny corners, 

sanity might visit, so a man 

with demons 

could preserve for us 

on canvas, wood, paper, 

whatever available 

and live in some kind of peace,

alone 

in Arles.


The Siesta

Who might see us here 

or bother with our wagon, 

while we, 

weary from thoughtless labor, 

the unceasing swing of the sickle, 

backs bent, 

the onslaught of insects 

disturbed in their pattern, 

baying cows 

begging for a small shade. We sag 

into each other, 

and dream.

It’s late.

I look out my window over the city lights into the dark of night.

I see Venus.

It’s August.


The song of fate… 

a destiny for each unknown, 

as sure as they were 

of their very own futures, as certain 

as steel cast to the air. Drifting 

with the vaper of a tapered candle, 

dismissing thoughts 

of the war 

outside the door, 

until too many sons had died, 

too many fathers gone missing 

and she sang 

no more, 

no more.


I am pressed to think 

of Our Lady of Guadalupe 

whom I consider 

The Mother. When 

I see her 

in symbolism. 

In Canada, 

Mexico, 

anywhere. 

Graffiti, 

other mothers, 

lone ladies. I don’t think

of Catholicism, 

religiosity, politics. I think 

of the UTERUS.

 

She looked him 

right in the eye. She wasn’t 

ever the type to flinch. She knew 

he was married, 

several children. 

She’d two herself, after all. But 

we must follow our dreams 

or go mad. And she’d never 

been allowed to 

simply dream. Life 

was too demanding. Even the weather 

dictated the choices 

she was forced to make. She looked 

him right in the eye.

The legend on this postcard actually reads "Stepping Out at the San Carlos Hotel in the 1920’s. One of the finest hotels in Florida and a center of Pensacola society." Enticed to look it up, I found The San Carlos was demolished in 1993, after being abandoned for more than a decade. No one associated with the design, architecture, building, ownership, management, etc, had any Spanish connection. It was named the San Carlos because the collaboration of white Anglo men thought it sounded romantic.  


Thinking of running, 

getting out of here.

All the fancy colors 

and we wear plain muslin; you can 

see us, 

any distance, day 

or night. Thinking 

about running. No place 

to go. Nowhere to 

even start to run. What’s even 

in the woods? Nowhere 

to land, feet on the ground. 

Thinking of running 

but sticking around.

(Inspiration for this postcard poem came from this Jacob Lawrence painting and a book I'm currently reading The Water Dancer by Ta-Nehisi Coates.)


Everything’s 
a pyramid scheme. 
Think about it. 
No matter what, 
it’s trickle up, 
trickle down. Unless 
you drive your own taxi 
and own the gas pump, 
less of a pyramid 
for you. Every 
other level, it’s definitely 
someone’s scheme.  
Top to bottom. 
Bottom to top.


Thanks for reading!


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